Saturday, June 17, 2006

Broken pieces

I think I am numb, to a certain extent.
Numb to the point where I think nothing can touch me again.
The walls I've built around me, protect me once again.

The only difference between now and then is that I would like to find someone who would want to tear these walls down again.

Perhaps I've grown used to not having walls around me but someone protecting me.
I feel naked now. Stripped of the walls. And so, in this short period of time, I have built a thin wall. Enough to protect me temporarily.

I used to have walls to protect me from the pain.
Now, the pain is a part of my life. A constant, not a variable.
No one can take it away. And I'm not being stubborn about it.
It's just there and it is there to stay.

Thin walls protect me now.
Protect me enough to keep me walking tall most of the time.
Protect me enough to keep those times when I walk with my head hanging to a minimum.
Protect me enough to keep the tears from falling continuously.
Protect me enough to keep making me feed myself.
Protect me enough to keep me alive.

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