Friday, September 29, 2006

I'm turning my back . . .

I'm turning my back on what I see, blocking it out from my mind and heart.
I don't say it doesn't bother me. I say, why bother what I think?
I don't just turn my back, I turn words around too.
Perhaps I'm really not as simple as I think. I hit back where it stings.

What I don't say is that I'm forcing a change. One that blocks what I don't like out of my head, out of my heart.

It's working. Hardening my heart once more, building this protective wall around it. The walls don't usually stay up long. I hope they do this time. Hope they don't marshmallow again.

The lack of respect & disappointment helps too much.

I turn my back on those who lose my respect. Those who let the levels of respect dip to dangerous levels. Those who let go of their beliefs. Those who cease to love themselves.

The minimal amount of respect is given each time we meet someone new. From there, as we get to know the person, the level of respect can go up or down the scale or even remain status quo.

Respect is earned. Not given. So don't try to wing it.

Posted by PhyQuirks. at 11:04 am 3 comments